For Those Who Have Ears to Hear

My day job took me to DC. I’m on the 12th floor of a hotel, looking out over the city, which had a snowstorm. Overnight, it looked like the little pellets inside a snow globe, and in the lamplight as I watched the snow fly, it was beautiful.

I stood looking out my hotel room window, and thought, “There are two men out there who have done the same, only with acquisition on their minds. They don’t see a strange mix of buildings and beauty; they see something they feel they own.”

Tuesday, the meetings I attended talked about how to talk to the legislators regarding rural health policy (think the sexy topics of Medicare and Medicaid) which we will do today. I am at the National Rural Health Association’s annual Policy Institute, since you ask.

Tuesday, several men in suits told us which words to avoid, which words to focus on. What no one discussed much was, how do you talk to people who work for someone who considers us serfs? Who looks out over the city and doesn’t think, “how can I make this place better,” but “how much can I enrich myself from this place?”

Maybe we didn’t discuss it because there is no way to get into that mindset and come out whole.

There was one interesting group discussion. Someone pointed out that “rural health” can be framed as a national security issue. If we can’t make them feel compassion for the loss of places where women can go to have babies, perhaps we can shock them with the potential loss of their own safety and security? We supply the food, the raw materials that become power (as in electricity, don’t stretch that into a metaphor, k thanks?). We supply the soldiers that fight wars and “keep” peace. Rural is vital to the proper functioning of the United States.

Mmhmm. Today is the day we go talk to the elected men (and some women) in suits, who work for the men in suits looking out their windows at what they believe they own. Those elected ones, they must be in some confusion at the moment. One hopes. It depends on why decided to occupy an office in the capital in first place. Did they believe they could make the world a better place, or that they could better their worlds? That they could do both with integrity and good results?

Moral high ground is slippery, and sometimes it walks through dark valleys. Good luck, elected officials. You’re going to need it.

But so are we, the grass roots non-profits and other care providers who find ourselves suddenly framing arguments without using certain words, and shining bright lights on how lucrative we are to their agenda. We’re being drawn into their kind of fight, and it would be naïve to believe that we can refuse to do that with any good results for the people counting on us to get them care.

I am praying to hold onto some integrity, intelligence, and a sense of humor today. Humility may come in handy, too. When people speak different dialects, you need to speak theirs to get things done. It’s called code switching, changing your accent and vocabulary to make communication more clear. It doesn’t usually have a moral component.

Except this time. Here we go.

Smoke and Mirrors – –

Jack is very late or very early this time – –

I started to smoke cigarettes when I was about 15 or 16. The ‘tuck shop’ across the street from my high school sold them from ‘under the counter’ – packs of five ‘Woodbines’ or even singly! Back then in the 1950s it was cool and most of my generation started out that way. Almost everyone we knew smoked and you might even have seemed strange if you didn’t!

Of course all the favorite movie stars smoked – Bacall, Bogart, etc.

In the college where I worked you could still smoke anywhere up until the 1980s – classrooms, workshops – wherever – –

I’ve tried often to quit – cold turkey or a pipe but it never worked – –

But for various reasons it is now necessary to bid them goodbye – –

I decided to try ‘vaping’ as both an alternative and a route to stopping completely. That took a bit of a leap in the dark as I know nothing about vaping. But a visit to a local small store and a conversation with the owner explained a lot and so did some research via Dr. Google. Now, vaping isn’t perfect either but at least I’m not sucking actual smoke into me, but mostly water vapor.

Obviously I shouldn’t be encouraging anyone to start vaping for any other reason than as a means of quitting, but I can certainly attest that it is definitely helping me with that. It’s been three days now and I haven’t been tempted to go for a cigarette.

Wish me luck – – –